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believing in your own gravity

November 2nd, 2016

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“She believed in her own gravity, and she never considered escaping it.

 

 The world isn’t improved by reading the personal tragedy that unfolded afterwards, but there’s also no fighting it—the power that lies in hearing her words is in the totality of its acceptance.”

 

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Spencer Kornhaber

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“As long as I know what I’ve done, I’m not gonna worry about what other people say or think I did.”

 

 

because only I know the truth

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… believed in her own gravity, and she never considered escaping gravity-is-in-my-bonesit may be one of the strongest lines I have read.

 

 

Understanding yourself … who and what you are … is difficult.

 

Accepting yourself … who and what you are … is difficult.

 

Which, inevitably, makes believing in yourself extremely difficult.

 

Accepting less than perfection … or accepting the fact you have imperfections … is difficult.

Knowing you have flaws … and even some destructive flaws … is difficult.

 

If you bundle all of those up … well … that is your gravity.

 

For some reasons, some good and some bad, we always seem to want to fix or change our gravity <which seems … well … as I type that … kind of impossible and somewhat silly objective>.

 

Some people dislike their gravity and fight it … try and escape it … and some even suggest they want to “fly” as a version of showing their dislike for their own gravity.

 

To be clear <part 1>.

 

This gravity discussion is different than a “come to the edge and fly” Life discussion. That is about risk and trying to see what you are capable of.

This gravity discussion is about who and what you are. What grounds you day in and day out as part of what makes you … well … you.fear-of-gravity-fall

 

To be clear <part 2>.

 

Gravity can be defied.

 

Well.

Let’s just say that you can learn to jump, fly or elevate <but you will inevitably get pulled back at some point>. So you can defy your gravity for moments in time.

 

But gravity is … well … gravity, i.e., it remains no matter what as part of Life.

And, while everyone faces gravity, your version of gravity is different than someone else’s.

 

You may like someone else’s gravity. Shit. You may dislike gravity. It doesn’t really matter. You either believe in your own gravity or you end up fighting gravity your entire Life.

 

And that is where that opening quote is so powerful … such a strong Life idea.

 

If you believe in your gravity, flaws and destructive qualities included, and do not try and escape it … you use what you have to the bet of your ability rather than fight it.

 

You believe in your gravity, the good and bad, as part of what can create some space in the world for you and no one else.

 

genaertional attitudes powerlessYou believe in your gravity, and understand it, and accept it, and believe it is what inevitably guides your feet down some path in Life.

 

By the way, this does not mean you are unapologetically comfortable with yourself … you may actually even find yourself slightly uncomfortable with your gravity … you just accept it … and believe it inevitably makes you who you are.

 

 

And, in the end, I imagine if you do not try and escape your gravity you stop looking at other’s gravity, you stop listening to people telling you to try and change your gravity and … well … you decide to use your gravity to become the hero in your own story.

 

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She needed a hero so she became one.

 

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Unknown

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unapologetically comfortable with yourself

October 2nd, 2016

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when youre unapologetically comfortable with yourself, people really dont know what to do with you.

 

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people get mad when they don’t understand the source of someone else’s confidence. lol thats wild.

 

 

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Well.

 

projects-complete-finish-progress-businessI loved both of these thoughts written by a young African <Nigeria I believe> woman on her tumblr site.

 

I love them because they do not mean you don’t want to improve <in fact most of these people acknowledge they are work in progress which actually is the foundation for their confidence and comfort with self> but rather espouse a strong belief in self – or being comfortable in your own skin.

 

I say that, yet, most people see these things as cocky or not willing to listen or be accepting constructive criticism.

 

They are wrong.

 

It is just a reflection of a strong self-awareness. And an awareness of what is going on around them. And a willingness to adapt to the situation at hand <therefore each situation aligns with the appropriate confidence rather than trying to stay a square peg and face a round hole on occasion>.

 

To me … this type of discussion around self awareness driven confidence is almost like discussing the difference between the actually appropriate “I couldn’t care less” versus the more common less appropriate phrase “I could care less.”

 

They clearly mean different things and, yet, misused so often they are misheard and misinterpreted.

 

But … about the self awareness the quotes suggest.like-thought-bubble

 

 

I like the stubborn kind of love of thyself.

 

I like the semi-unconditional love of who and what you are.

 

I like the persistency and acceptance of the undeniable compass that resides within.

 

I like the understanding and almost commanding hold this belief has on someone’s character and behavior and attitudes.

 

I like the fact it leaves someone nowhere to go and, yet, at the same time enables the ability to embrace some type of expanded self.

 

 

I like the sense that this is a different type of self love which one can never escape no matter how hard you may try <because Life suggests you should ‘escape it’>.

 

I like the thought that it remains a version of a good friend to rely on regardless of the time of day, situation or crisis.

 

I like the fact it suggests a version of ‘home’ regardless of how far you may be tempted to stray.

 

I like it represents a source of healing from which one can replenish who and what you are … no matter what happens.

 

I like the sense of true companionship strength <thru thick or thin>.

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I like the unapologetic faith in head, heart & humanity.

 

 

I like the … well … consistency … and the flexibility. I call it a consistent flexible personality.

 

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The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe.

If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.

 

 

Friedrich Nietzsche

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I like the idea someone can change innumerable times, yet in each iteration, will remain fundamentally the same.

 

I like the idea that the personality & character doesn’t change for, basically, functional reasons.

 

 

I like the idea it maintains the attitude of ‘the self’ and continuing to change, constantly aligning itself to changing world and what it learns.

 

And, I imagine, what I like most is that this type of self-confidence and belief in self insures that no matter how often Life and the shit it throws at you tries to put an end to its existence … you exist.unapologetic-power-go-on-scared-life

 

The dictionary tells us you cannot ‘put an end to the existence of something’ more than a single time. I would argue with the dictionary <which is surprising because I like unequivocal truths>. Life can, and does, put an end to the existence of lots of ‘self’ things. Sometimes for good but more often for the bad.

 

All I would say is that if you are unapologetically comfortable with yourself you are more likely to insure the existence of what matters and put an end to the existence of that which does not matter … when it matters.

 

People may not know what to do with you but you will always know what you can do.

 

aren’t you afraid?

July 12th, 2016

 

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“Aren’t you afraid?”

 

‘Of what?’

 

“Of losing yourself.”

 

‘That’s what I’m hoping for.’

 

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Maggie Stiefvater

 

 

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I have no space, no room to move around

And this box is getting smaller, I’m trying to get out

How did I get so far from where I was?

When did I decide to lose my way? Who have I become?

 

I’ve got a new low

All 52 cards in a row

 

I’ve been right, I’ve been left

I’ve been wrong, I’ve been left behind

I’ve been up but mostly down

 

I cannot help feeling like I have so much at stake

So I lock myself inside my head and I just run in place

So many directions I don’t know which way to go

I’m so busy doing nothing, I got nothing to show

 

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Middle Class Rut – New Low Lyrics

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I have written so many times about holding on to the core of yourself … and finding the core of who and what you are … and relentlessly defending the core of what makes you … well … that when I saw the opening quote I sat back and had to ponder its wisdom.

 

Purposefully losing yourself.

 

What a thought.

 

Why would anyone purposefully do so?

 

Well.

 

What happens if you feel like you are just running in place?

 

What happens if you feel like you’ve lost 52 cards in a row?

 

What happens if you feel like you are constantly reaching a new low?

 

 

Uhm.

 

You start thinking that risking losing yourself just ain’t that big a risk.

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When you are in a rut. Maybe when you are in a hole. Shit. Maybe even when you feel like you are slipping into a hole … you have a tendency to grasp at straws. To start thinking that everything is on the table with regard to change … even yourself.

 

This is a dangerous time.

 

I am certainly not going to suggest that you can’t, and shouldn’t, ‘lose yourself in seeking a newer better different version of yourself’ … because … well … depending on the circumstances it may actually be the right thing to do and a healthy decision.

 

But.

 

This is a big decision.

 

Like this is a big hairy audacious type decision.

 

This is not a decision to be made flippantly or out of some momentary desperation.

 

Far too often people flippantly say “desperate times demand desperate measures.’

 

Sure.

 

In truly desperate situations this may be true.

But more often than not a personal crisis of self or even some situation you are in … well … rarely is truly desperate <even though it may feel that way>.

 

We all face tough moments and tough situations. And 90+% of the time we muddle through – either stumbling our way or thru some insightfully smart maneuvering or somewhere in between.

 

And the more often we do so the less likely we think about sacrificing who and what we are currently.

 

But that doesn’t mean you don’t get tempted on occasion.

 

Anyway.

 

Let’s assume you do make the choice.

 

And let’s assume it is the right choice.

 

This choice is exactly like any other real important choice <although I could argue any choice> you make.

 

People will look at your decision.

 

People will question you.

 

People will ask you if you are afraid.

 

But.

 

Decisions are decisions. Once made … there is no going back.afraid to grow into your heights life lose

 

Are you afraid of losing yourself?

 

Sure.

 

And, yet, that is exactly what you are hoping for.

 

That pretty much summarizes any important Life decision you will ever make.

 

hatred of boredom

June 26th, 2016

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“I’m a slave to my hatred of boredom.”

 

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F. Scott Fitzgerald

 

 

 

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So.

 

Far too often I think we confuse a lack of attention, attention spans, or attention in general, with a hatred of boredom.

 

I imagine I could say that this is simply about discussing two sides of the same coin.

 

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One side is boredom.

 

One side is attention span.

 

 

Regardless of my imaginary coin … attention spans, in general, are certainly one of the main “topic du jours” a shitload of people, and ‘experts’, pontificate on espousing on “a generation borne of short attention spans” <the infamous … “we have attention spans of a goldfish” — note: we do not>.

 

I have always said we do not have significantly shorter attention spans today than we have had in the past and that technology isn’t make us a society with an attention deficit.

 

And I have a post coming up soon discussing the important, and responsibility, of getting someone’s attention.

 

But why doesn’t anyone ever discuss WHY our attention wavers?

 

Sure.

 

Many people, I included, have discussed relevance matters in gaining attention and maintaining attention  and many people, I included, have discussed how interest and attention are inextricably linked … but why don’t we just simply talk about boredom?

 

Because if I am bored I will not pay attention.boredom structure boredom

 

Shit.

 

 

If a goldfish is bored they will not pay attention.

 

Shit.

 

If you are bored enough <as the chart “structure of boredom” suggests you attain “demonic boredom” – this is the type of boredom which can make you say stupid things out loud>

 

 

Anyway.

 

Here is the flipside of the coin.

 

If you can keep me from being bored? You have my attention.

 

Personally … I hate being bored.

 

Some people confuse this with a lack of ability to pay attention. They are wrong.

 

People have my undivided attention and focus … if I am not bored with what is being said or shown.

 

I don’t think I am particularly unique n this.

 

I do know because of my hatred of boredom that I have quasi-mastered the art of ‘surface attention.’

 

Surface attention?

 

What this is … is … well … let’s say you are in a meeting. And some bonehead is engenders boredom speaking too muchdemanding you sit through a 75 page PowerPoint presentation.

I can guarantee you that I am gonna feel some hate <some boredom> within those 75 pages <and the 75+ words that must be said accompanying every page>.

But that hate will not keep me from perking up on … well … say … page 51 where … well … you aren’t boring me.

 

And I have to admit. It is good that I have mastered this particular skill because F. Scott and I have something in common … I am a slave to my hatred of boredom.

 

Because outside of a meeting or some environment constricting my ability to flee my boredom … not only do I not pay attention but I move on. I actually will get away, if not actually flee, from boredom.

I hate being bored so much I have been chastised for being rude <and sometimes it can also mistakenly be construed as some version of ‘self superiority’>.

 

I am neither rude nor do I believe I am smarter, or superior or better in any way … I am simply a slave to my hatred of boredom. In fact … as a parallel point … I will actively search out ‘non-boring.’ So … its not like I don’t want to hear what people have to say and i actually highly value other’s opinions, especially of they are contrarian views., but just as i am active n my pursuit for non-boredom i am also quite active in avoiding, and fleeing, actual boredom.

 

Maybe I don’t handle it as well as many other people but, once again, I just don’t think I am that unique.  Given the opportunity I believe most of us schmucks would haul ass when bored by someone or something.

 

In most cases it isn’t rooted in any thought that someone is ‘dumb’ or ‘an asshole/asshat’ … we are just fucking bored.

 

I imagine my real point <and this would be great advice to professional marketers> is … well … if you want my attention don’t bore me.

 

Now.

 

This doesn’t mean ‘entertain me’ or ‘make me laugh’ or … well … any simplistic tripe many experts spout. Don’t overthink it. There is no formula. And there is no ‘one thing’ to do.

 

Just don’t bore me.

 

I don’t care how you do it.

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You can engage me intellectually.

 

You can engage me by … well … being engaging.

 

You can engage me by making me smile.

 

You can engage me by tapping into my inner altruism.

 

You can engage me by tapping into my sense of responsibility.

 

The list of how to engage someone is relatively infinite.

 

But one thing circumvents the infinite list of possibilities … boredom.

 

I am a slave to my hatred of boredom.

 

And while I may hate boredom a little more than the average everyday schmuck … in general … I tend to believe most everyone hates being bored.

 

Well.boredom dog bored attention

 

 

There is some professional advice.

 

Don’t be boring and don’t bore people you have an interest in communicating with.

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