“The detective thinks he is investigating a murder or a missing girl. But truly he is investigating something else altogether, something he cannot grasp hold of directly.
Satisfaction will be rare.
Uncertainty will be your natural state.
Much of your life will be spent in the dark woods, no path visible, with fear and loneliness your only companions.
But answers exist.
Solutions wait for you, trembling, pulling you to them, calling your name, even if you cannot hear.
I believe that someday, perhaps many lifetimes from now, all will be explained, and all mysteries will be solved.
All knowledge will be free for the taking, including the biggest mystery of all – who we really are.
But for now, each detective, alone in the woods, must take the clues and solve mysteries alone.”
<fictional detective – Sara Gran>
This is a thought about Life … and us.
We are all detectives investigating Life … and our Life within it.
We all think we are investigating purpose or career happiness or happiness in general.
We all eventually realize that grasping the things we seek is fleeting and more often our grasp is tentative and indirect.
We all find satisfaction … but in glimpses not in endless continuity … and certainly not in perpetuity.
We all find this inconstancy & uncertainty far too common … and uncomfortable.
We are most often in the dark with regard to overall personal purpose with no clear path visible … and even when on a clear path it is often paved with doubt & uncertainty.
We all have physical companions which stand alongside the companions of fear, doubt and loneliness … hoping the physical companions can outweigh the mental companions.
We all know answers exist … and we all know they await us … even if we cannot hear them.
I find “who you really are/who am I?” as a silly, if not stupid, self question.
Who I am today is not who I will necessarily be tomorrow.
If you take the time to really think about this topic I believe we all kind of know, in an uncomfortable sense, that the mystery of who we are will only be explained … well … maybe lifetimes from now … but suffice it to say most likely not in our own lifetime.
How frustrating that sounds as I type it. Think about it.
The only people who will know who we truly are today are not us … but someone somewhere in a future yet to be defined.
What a frustrating thought <at least to me>.
Each of us … each of us a detective … will continuously search for clues and solve what mysteries we can today.
That’s what we do.
We scan about for clues to be better, think better and understand better.
We are all detectives … whether we want to be one or not … attempting to solve the mystery that is us & Life around us.