“Stop going to your #dark place.
The older you get, the more happiness becomes a conscious decision you have to make every day.
You can’t expect to automatically feel good when you wake up.
It’s something you have to work toward.”
The human body is 70% water so we’re basically cucumbers with anxiety.
“The truth is, I pretend to be a cynic, but I am really a dreamer who is terrified of wanting something she may never get.”
When we get up in the morning it is a decision … it is a decision to not stay down.
Every day you decide to get up you have either consciously, or subconsciously, decided that Life was not going to keep you down.
In the grander scheme of things that sure seems like a pretty important decision.
And, yet, we don’t invest a shitload of energy thinking about it.
Most of us think of facing each day as a responsibility.
Kind of a basic survival duty.
I imagine we do so mostly as a sanity tactic.
For if you stay down … don’t get up … you are inevitably faced with the decisions you have made up to that point <as well as the fact you will not be able to pay the bills>. And, to refer to my first quote, this means as you get older you have more and more decisions you will have to face.
Time is rarely your friend with regard to contemplating your decisions.
I say that because … well … because here is what almost 99% of us do on a daily basis … we decide what we will cede in terms of what we know, or believe, is the right thing to do.
We compromise a little on ‘principles.’ Well. At least our principles.
Most of the time it is okay because the organizational, the business, principles give us some slightly to more expansive boundaries from which we can assess what we should do or not do.
But even within that “okay” we are far too often trapped in the wretched hollow space of a decision of ‘what will you surrender today for the hope of the win tomorrow’ <and the tomorrow may just be something somewhere beyond the horizon>.
Some may call this ‘moral relativism.’ They would most likely be the intellectuals, philosophers and people who don’t really do shit for work in their Life.
For most of us every day schmucks it is a combination of survival “if I don’t do this I will not get that” and dreamer “I will go ahead and do this because someday………….<fill in bank> “
As we face each day we realize that we are facing more than that day.We realize our actions can suppress our ultimate dreams or they can empower a dream to come to Life … some day in the future.
None of us really know our future and what it holds so the decision today takes on some sense of urgency of ‘well, this MAY be really fucking important with regard to my survival/dream so I gotta do what I gotta do.’
Today can look really huge with regard to tomorrow.
I chuckled <a little painfully> as I typed that lst sentence.
I am reminded of what President Bush said in 2008 … “abandoned free market principles to save the free market.”
And we do what we feel like we have to do using principles mostly not as a “stop or go” sign but rather as some slightly nebulous guardrails we can maneuver around within.
And then we leave to face another day.
When taken on a daily basis … it is relatively easy to face the day.
When viewed over a longer term … it can become relatively difficult to face the next day. Maybe that is why most of us get up and face the day each & ever day – the alternative doesn’t seem so appealing. Maybe that is the ‘dark place’ that we know is there and avoid it the best that we can.
Here is what I know for sure.
Every day you face you have one authority … the authority over your actions and attitudes and behaviors.
You have the authority over what you will do … and will not do.
You have the authority over your principles and morals … and whether you will abandon them or not.
You should note one key thing on the whole abandoning thing.
Once abandoned is always abandoned.
There is no true ‘just this once’ abandoning of principles. Once crumpled principles are forever wrinkled.
And, yet, it seems like each day we are faced with some choice to surrender our moral authority and cede the principled battlefield under the belief that by doing so “the day will be saved.”
How wrong that thought is. For in surrendering that day we will have already been lost.
Maybe getting up every day has nothing to do with moral relativism and more about just doing the shit you need to do.
Maybe we really are just cucumbers with anxiety.
Maybe it is a little something more we should think about on occasion. Because maybe we are really a dreamer who is terrified of wanting something she may never get … and in our terror as we face each day we lose the one thing which makes our dreams look small – our moral authority & principles.