I am I … and remade again and again

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“I am made and remade continually. Different people draw different words from me.”
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Virginia Woolf

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 Ok. Here is a personal truth.

Today I am a different version of who I was yesterday.

Another truth?

I will most likely view a different version of myself tomorrow.

In other words. I am remade constantly. I do not believe I am that different in this discussion. All of us are remade constantly.

Now. Does this mean ‘not being true to thineself’? Nope.

In fact. Being true to yourself actually means changing <or adapting>.

Well. At least in my mind.

Ok. Here is a Life truth. I am fairly sure everyone is this … or some version, in degrees, of this ‘remading’ thing.

That creates some problems because, at its core, this one Life’s contradictions. Staying the course with regard to your core and yet changing yourself as you learn & experience. Its kind of like a personal version of ‘optimal newness.’

I envision this is all about ‘the more you learn the more you change’.

remade different personMaybe more interesting <maybe>… it isn’t about quantity of learning but rather the thought that each individual thing you learn actually changes your … either subconsciously or consciously.

Well. This suggests nudging rather than radical change.

Regardless. I find we sometimes hold on to things more so when the encouraged change is conscious <there is more internal mental debate> but, inevitability, if you are learning shit … you will change shit:

Change your thoughts.

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Change your attitude.

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Change your behavior.

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Even change your appearance.

Sometimes when I have this discussion with people they think this whole ‘constantly be remade’ thought is … well … unreasonable.

Unreasonable? Yup. They think it is a little unreasonable because while, philosophically, we all agree that change is good … practically speaking … we tend to balk at it. And we tend to balk even more if we suggest changing again and again. And we tend to balk even more if we suggest all that changing occurs with us.

As soon as remading becomes personal this becomes a ‘but’ obstacle management. Yeah. I tend to think of our forward movement, or change movement, being inhibited by what I call the “but signs” society & the people around us throw up as they watch us ‘remake’ <which are actually huge stop signs>:

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“But you have changed.”

“But you said this.”

responsibility does not matter but it does“But you used to do this.”

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Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm … lots of ‘buts.’ Life and people push back on you as you push forward with personal change.

Something has to give.

You gotta push back.

Remaking yourself … again and again … may sound unreasonable, if not slightly disingenuous, to others.

Well. Tough shit.

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“You won’t find reasonable men on the tops of tall mountains.”

Hunter S. Thompson

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Remade people tend to stand on tall mountains. The mountain may not be success <which is what I fear many people associate tall mountains with these days> … it may simply be the ability to stand tall.

To be clear. Not actually taller than anyone else. Just tall.

As I think about this it is almost odd to suggest some inconsistency, the thought that ‘different people draw different words from me’, would actually create a stronger solid personal core but I reconcile that thought with the understanding we all would feel pretty good about ourselves if we can stand tall.

And if being remade again and again helps us do so then maybe some inconsistency is good. It may be more difficult for people around us but better for us.

Or.

Maybe our inconsistency is a compliment to the people we meet.

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“I am a part of all that I have met. “

Alfred Tennyson

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Regardless.

Remaking yourself is a good thing.

Just be prepared for the battle of the ‘buts.’

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